Hi. My name is Sha, and I'm a recovering hypocrite. It's quite interesting how I came to the realization but that story will be divulged at another time. Right now the important thing is that I'm aware, I've acknowledged, I've apologized, and I've made an effort to do better.
The thing is, being a hypocrite is so easy and usually undetected until pointed out. I mean, we can be so narrow minded sometimes that we truly have no clue that we have different standards for different situations. This was especially true when it came to my expectations for my family and my religious expectations for others.
Being a hypocrite is so easy and usually undetected until pointed out.
I often expected my kids to be better than me because I wanted better for them than what I had. I expected them to do better than I did because they have a better life than I had at their age. I have since realized that it wasn't solely my environment that shaped me. Mostly, I was just being a kid and I needed to allow my kids to do the same thing. There is no such thing as the always perfect child. And I am ok with that. (I do wish that I would have gotten the memo sooner though)
Then there was the religious side. You know, we "believers" sure do have a lot of expectations for the world. We tell people to come as they are but then they have to change. Which, to me, says you're good enough to come to Jesus but aren't good enough to stay around.
In our zeal for righteousness we sometimes forget that we don't make people righteous, Jesus does. And so we aren't as patient, gentle, and gracious as we could be. It's like we forgot that we also have a past that God isn't counting against us.
I have learned that God expects me to offer the same loyalty and friendship to others as what He has offered to me. When I was at my worst, God never left my side. He comforted me, pulled me out, cleaned me up, and then walked with me to a better place. So this has become my intention with those he puts in my life.
No one wants to know the Jesus you serve when you're living a double standard.
I could have continued on my journey of hypocrisy but it just wasn't working. No one wants to know the Jesus you serve when you're living a double standard. No one wants to hear about your miracles or your prayers. A hypocritical Christian is the biggest weapon of the darkness because they keep people from ever wanting to get to know the Jesus that could actually help them.
I used to be a hypocrite. Jesus is helping me with that. I'm sure there are still areas that he is flushing out because my journey isn't over. In the meantime, all is grace.